Noapte

Nu poti dormi. Iti muti privirea dintr-o parte a camerei in alta. Degeaba. Acelasi lucru. Intuneric si iar intuneric.Te gandesti ce vei face ziua urmatoare. Te intrebi de fapt daca vrei sa faci ceva sau te vei ascunde in camera ta, sa uiti de lume, de tot. Te ridici din pat, te duci afara. Stand pe pragul usii, te uiti la cer. La luna, la stele. Vrei ceva. In imensul cer vrei sa te ratacesti. Vrei sa zbori. Vrei sa fii mai aproape de luna. Sa visezi. Cu stelele sa dansezi. Sa plutesti pe nori. Atatea ganduri vin in capul tau, apoi te parasesc in noaptea tacuta. Stai cu privirea atintita pe cer. Incepi sa iti imaginezi diferite lucruri, apoi nostalgia se instaleaza in tine. Te capteaza. Te intristeaza. Pierzi intreaga noapte privind cerul. Pierzi intreaga noapte gandindu-te la drumul pe care l-ai pornit. Gandindu-te la inifnit....

Not today

                

Like everyone says : <I'll be okay, just not today.>

I hardly can move, hardly I can tell my brain what to do, tell my heart what to feel. 

It's hot outside, I feel lazy, I feel sick, I feel nothing and everything in the same time. 

I can't eat anything, also can't drink, can't speak, can't think.

Dear bad mood, go away.

Vacanta?

Zilele cele mai incarcate au trecut, vacanta se apropie cu pasi repezi, caldura deja si-a facut aparitia. Starea aceea in care simti ca vrei sa te relaxezi, sa citesti o carte, sa te uiti la un film de mult dorit, sa te plimbi, aceas stare s-a instalat in tine.
Mai e putin, dar incerci sa nu te mai gandesti la vacanta, sa termini cat mai repede tot ce ai de facut.

Fad

Am o stare ciudata, ma simt obosita, lipsita de putere, simt nevoia sa stau sa lenevesc, sa privesc cerul, sa simt vantul.
Simt ca vreau sa las totul aici si sa plec departe.
Nu vreau sa mai aud tipete, certuri, nu mai vreau sa simt presiune.
Vreau armonie si liniste.

Fad. Stiu.
Asta e. Asta sunt eu acum.
Salut.

Zile

Sunt zile cand privirea ta ma calmeaza, ma duce intr-o stare atat de placuta, intr-o stare in care vreau sa raman mereu. Sunt zile in care vocea ta e cea pe care vreau sa o aud atunci cand ma trezesc, atunci cand ma culc. Sunt zile in care tacerea apune peste tine, nu spui nimic, te uiti in gol, te gandesti la infinit. Sunt zile cand mainile tale imi strang corpul atat de tare incat ma fac sa ma simt ca pe cel mai pufos nor, ma fac sa ma simt in siguranta. In unele zile nu ai chef de nimic, nu ai cuvinte sa-mi spui. Sunt zile care nu vreau sa se termine. Sunt zile care vreau sa le petrec alaturi de tine. Si sunt zile in care bucuria se citeste pe chipul tau.

Everything

You are everything good in my life. I love you!

Stop

As you said, is not the same. So stop hitting me with those hard words. Stop complaining that this is shit and that isn't working because your argument is invalid. Stop fucking contradicting with me when you know you aren't right...

              

11

Every second I love you more.

Ten

Ignora tot ce nu iti place. Nu lasa pe nimeni sa te doboare, sa iti omoare dorinta de a sarbatori aceasta zi. Nu ai voie sa te intristezi. Nu ai voie sa te gandesti la ceva care ar putea sa te duca intr-o stare de nostalgie. Nu ai voie astazi.

About dreams

You start to belive in your dreams, which you think that they were lost forever. You kinda find yourself in them. You live your life with them in your mind, because some time, they will became true and you know that.

All new

New year, new decisions, new memories, new wishes.

Stupid story

She was standing there. With her teddy-bear in her arms, tears on her face and emptiness in her soul. She tought she will face that day, but she failed.
< Look at the beautiful sky, feel the wind runnin' through you hair and listen to me when I'm tellin' you that everything's gonna be ok. >
A smile came on her face, she stopped cryin' and hugged harder her teddy-bear.

Stubborn

I didn't want to belive that. I was fucking scared. Still have that feeling in me, but not the same how I was few weeks ago. Why I didn't want to belive what everyone was tellin' me? Ahh I'm too stubborn.

Long road

Sometimes you have to remember from where you go.

Sensitive

They tell me I'm sensitive....
Yes, I am sensitive at all of that bullshit they talk!

You can't simply get rid of some thoughts.

They're still stuck in your mind. No matter what you do, where you are, what are you doing. You're trying and trying and still trying.
You just can't.

As you say

And of course you don't understand. As you say, is not the same situation.

Yes, you are fucking right, it ain't. 

You simply can't understand of what is someone going trough. 

And try to fucking think, when I refer to general stuffs, I'm talkin' about the present and also about the past!

Sweet November

Stele pe cer, luna acoperita de nori, fum de tigara. Imbratisari, imbarbatari, cantece vechi.

Lacrimi in ochii mei, zambet pe buze. Mainile reci, corpul relaxat. 

Another day

Tryin to be completely relaxed. It's dark. Can't see anything. The curtains are closed. I'm sittin' in my bed. Away from everyone, from everything. I close my eyes. I'm thinking. I start to cry. Times passes so fast. I open my eyes. Sunlight pass trough the curtains. Another awful day to start. Another complains. I close my eyes back. I wonder...

1 minute

..and everything could be messed up.
You're tellin' yourself that next time you'll not going to do that again. But, damn , it happened now and nothing ain't change it. It's not fair.
It's a fucking minute! < I'd better leave it >, you're repetin' this words in your mind for a whole hour.